Anxiety
I hate it.
It's vague and nagging. I know it's more or less caused by the stress of having a new baby, and perhaps also because of having a long-term guest/family member (although Leo's sister, YP, has been a great help! We're just still adjusting and working out a few kinks).
The meds have helped with the scary rage, and mostly with the "sad" depression stuff. But this anxiety...it sucks. I may have to go back into counseling. My old therapist is now really too far away (and she sort of hinted, long before we got pregnant with Arwyn, that she didn't think I should have any more kids, so I would hate to go back and have to face any kind of "I told you so"). Also, even though she was great to talk to and helped me realize a few things that have contributed to my tendency towards depression, she seemed to think having a hobby would solve a lot of my problems. I humored her for a while, but I finally realized, heck, when am I supposed to have time to work on this hobby?? With an infant (this was Aislinn, at the time)?? In a different season of my life, that would be very helpful. But now, not so much.
It's vague and nagging. I know it's more or less caused by the stress of having a new baby, and perhaps also because of having a long-term guest/family member (although Leo's sister, YP, has been a great help! We're just still adjusting and working out a few kinks).
The meds have helped with the scary rage, and mostly with the "sad" depression stuff. But this anxiety...it sucks. I may have to go back into counseling. My old therapist is now really too far away (and she sort of hinted, long before we got pregnant with Arwyn, that she didn't think I should have any more kids, so I would hate to go back and have to face any kind of "I told you so"). Also, even though she was great to talk to and helped me realize a few things that have contributed to my tendency towards depression, she seemed to think having a hobby would solve a lot of my problems. I humored her for a while, but I finally realized, heck, when am I supposed to have time to work on this hobby?? With an infant (this was Aislinn, at the time)?? In a different season of my life, that would be very helpful. But now, not so much.
posted by Andrea | 7:28 PM
2 Comments:
Anxiety is rough... hang in there.
I think anxiety is tougher to live with than depression (I've had both). Except if we're talking suicidal, of course. Find a new therapist. Although no therapist worth a darn would "I told you so." It's not hers to say how many kids you have!
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